Reset Password
Reset Link Sent
| Blogs > LaBellaVita87 > My Blog |
lonely
|
lonely i've never felt so lonely in my life. particularly today. so much has happened this past week. im sitting in my apartment all alone. all my roomates are gone. just me and the pup (but thank god for him!) i couldnt afford to go out even if i wanted to. no money, no gas, no money for gas til tomorrow, no one to go out with. usually what i do when i feel shitty is drive around. but since i have no gas im completely immobile. sucks. what i should do is just go to bed. i think ive slept a total of 6 hours in the past 4 nights. last night i tossed and turned wide awake for 2 hours before getting out of bed at 2am to clean the entire apartment (hey, atleast its clean), play video games, and do some packing. i finally got back into bed at 4ish, feeling more tired. but of course i slept for about an hour before waking up at 5, tossing and turning more, and then called it quits and stayed up watching tv til i had to get ready for work. and my phone just rang. not someone asking if i wanted to go out. it was someone asking if i wanted to be a chauffeur. using my own gas. nice. i coudlnt even if i wanted to. so im just going to curl up with a big blanket and my puppy in our freezing cold apartment (no heat). alone. althought im not sure id want company right now. or make anyone suffer through my company. i can't keep it together lately. i actually had to be picked up and brought home from the bar last night (and no, not because i was drunk). apparently i couldnt keep myself composed. but im lucky i have friends that are willing to take care of me enough that they'd go out of their way to make sure i get home (thank you) because lets face it, sitting in the bathroom at a bar for an hour crying = pretty sad. when it rains, it pours. right? i know this probably isnt the right place to write about my feelings or problems. but i have no one to talk to. and no where else to write. all i can hope is that things will get better. and that once finals are done a lot of the stress will be lifted. |
|||
|
You know what... you would not be able to make me suffer through your company. Actually your company would be welcomed. What sort of video games do you enjoy? And there is always time to get warm snuggling with someone under a blanket watching tv or a movie. I do own about 290 DVDs to choose from. And this place is fine to write about your feelings or problems. Just look at my blog. I promise you I have written about many of my feelings and problems. I also am willing to chat anytime. Just send me an email or hit me up in my private messages post in my blog and I can reply through email, on here, if you would like. My running total Ladies Please I need some help Want a Free Credit report No Scams Or you can come and say hello to me at Private Messages Here is a post that is close to my heart. Mental Health Issues
| ||
12/13/2008 8:06 pm |
Bella, This place is what you make it. It can be a great many things to different people. Some use it: rant, cry, brag, socialize, and even fantasize. There is generally no right or wrong post. If posting your worries, frustrations, and trials helps you deal with them then that's a good thing. Plus you'll quickly find there are others who've been where you are right now in the past. They can be a great source of comfort when you need it the most. And from personal experience things will get better!  Hondo Home is where your mate is...
| ||
12/13/2008 10:28 pm |
i would like to come hang out
| ||
12/14/2008 2:28 am |
This is the perfect place to let go of your troubles. There are a lot of people in the same boat this time of year. If you ever need someone to go out with even it's just for a coffee and talk to look me up. Love Mark
|
Become a member to create a blog
